Perfect man?

So many people are getting married left right centre, Made me wonder whether has everyone found their MR Right or their perfect man??? And that's why they are getting married? Or is it because age is catching up, women end up settling? Hey, I mean no one wants to be the "Spinster" lady, right? How many are getting married because they truly will do anything and everything, will go thru thick and thin, in sickness and in health, till death do u part??

This CNY, as with the last few ones, kept getting asked or told to get married =p like its the one thing in life that MUST be done. Well, too bad cos i'm not gonna settle just for the sake of settling. Hey, marriage is for a lifetime. No play play, no rehearsals, no dun like can press RESET button!! So heck I'm taking my time to know myself first before knowing what or who I want to spend the rest of my life with. I've known too many couples who just get married and then end up hating each other. Separated. Divorced.

I'm sure every couple who gets married are like totally in love and would think wonderful things about each other, and gushing & giggling down the aisle.... but somehow i really dun want that. I don't want to be in a relationship that is just sugar and fluff. And you're just happy happy all the time. Never fight. Everything is rosy. I know this might sound bitter or sad, but i want someone that i can fight with, someone that will get angry with me, someone that will have a yelling match with me. Spending a lifetime together is a long long time, how long can rosy, fluffy ad sugary last??

My Perfect Man has got to be as flawed as I am. As sarcastic as I am. As stubborn as I am (if not how to make it last..hehe). Don't want no "yes" man. Need someone that respects my thoughts and my opinions, but doesn't compromise his own. Need a man not scared of showing his soft side and yet protect me with his strength and bravery. But most importantly i need someone who will fear God.

This "Perfect Man" exist? I'm sure he does. Actually I know he does ;)

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kevin EMAIL: kevinboo78@yahoo.com IP: 219.74.41.38 URL: http://www.friendster.com/1614859 DATE: 03/01/2007 07:40:08 AM i THINK you just kinda describe my good buddy? which would fit REALLY well to that descriptions! hhmmm.... come to think of it, you ARE seeing him! muahahaha....... hows life miss chan? ada sihat? ada baik? gue punya brother threating you right?u threating gue punya brother right? =) -----

Past Love....

I attended my ex-bf's wedding the other day...and so many people were amazed, shocked that i would or can do such a thing. What's the big deal? Hmmmmm.... i think other ppl were more uncomfortable with the idea than me actually going there and sitting thru the whole thing ... haha

I wondered - why the discomfort? I believe that loving someone doesn't stop just because the "romantic" relationship has ended. You can love someone as a friend, as someone who has shared your life in the past... I really wish my ex-bf all the best in his life and that his marriage would be all that he wishes for.

But really, does love just end because your relationship has ended? I would hope that my heart is big enough to continue loving someone even though we're no longer together. I think the love just changes to another type of love. A love for someone that knows you and has shared a season of your life together with you. Well that's what I hope.

Heard a lovely song of love lost, past love... somehow the lyrics really touched me...especially the first two lines... makes me remember ;) .... the song is :

Always On Your Side - Sheryl Crow & Sting My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away But every now and then you come to mind Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game But when your name was called, you found a place to hide When you knew that I was always on your side Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent But my demons and my angels reappeared Leavin' only traces of the man you thought I'd be Too afraid to hear the words I'd always feared Leavin' you with only questions all these years Is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally This isn't how it's really meant to be No, it isn't how it's really meant to be Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear, How to pull it close and make it stay Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away And I'm left to carry on and wonder why Even through it all, I'm always on your side Is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally Is this how its really meant to be? no, this isn't how its really meant to be Well they say that love is in the air, never is it clear How to pull it close and make it stay Butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away, Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why Was it you that kept me wandering through this life When you know that I was always on your side?

Time & Tide Waits for No Man nor Woman

OMG time is passing so fast!! Yday it was New Year's and today is Feb 7!! Time is like zipping by like a crazed drugged up road runner!! Is it me or as I get older time passes by faster?? Used to be in school, it seemed like the year was taking forever to pass... u just couldn't wait for when u were 12, when ur 16, 18, 21.... then suddenly, wham bam, you're 28!! Like wooooaaaahhhhhh, what happenedd??!! Now everyone is getting married, having kids...moving away, starting their own business, and its like everyone is racing ahead. Something to race after, a dream, And little old me here just wants some free and relaxing time to Slooooooooooooowly enjoy life. What's the whole rush people???!! I know la, life is short... but no one told me life accelerates after 26! There's just too much to do, too little time. Everyone wants ur time, everything is deadlines and meetings are endless & time consuming ..... Sigh. I think i'm just gonna go home, lock the doors, off the phone, turn on some jazz music, pour a glass of wine or orange juice, get a good book and snuggle in bed and slooooooooooooowly enjoy life. The world is moving too fast for me...and I dun want to turn 30 so soon =p

Are you in a rat race?

As a young working adult in a corporate world, i have had countless times when i wonder what's it all for? Why do we run the race? I feel that its called the "RAT" race because many who run it & run it successfully, act very much like rats. Big fat Filthy, disgusting, conniving RATS!

So question is, how do you do well without being a rat? Is it so hard to be successful in the corporate world by being nice, truthful, hardworking and helpful?

Or has being a rat been so ingrained into some people that things just can't change? Its damn sad really because there are so many things more to life than a job, a great salary, a great job title, a big car, ridiculously expensive watches....

I know some people who have lost their souls running in this rat race. To the point that stabbing a colleague in the back, lying, gossiping, murmuring, creating malicious stories are so ingrained in them that its as natural as breathing. N for these people they won't be able to see that breathing is wrong, right or not?

I'm a Christian struggling to reconcile the work place and my beliefs. I mean, its really not easy to "Love Thy Enemy"...or even love everyone for that matter. I try, I really do...but rats are not exactly the most lovable things around =p

I have feelings like everyone else, being a Christian doesn't mean suddenly superhuman, shoot also won't die. BUT looks like alot of rats want Christians (who are trying very hard not to scream, slap or punch rats) to fall....its like they take glee in saying "see, christian woh, but also like everyone else wat".

Its true we are like everyone else; we have feelings, we get hurt and angry too. But don't for one minute think that we are weak and easy targets! Working in a RAT infested world and not being a rat is one of the hardest things. Choosing to do the right thing isn't appreciated...even though its damn hard to do the right thing. The rat race has made it so easy to do all the wrong things!

Everytime things get hard, or hopeless, or people get mean and all I want to do is punch them in the face, I CHOOSE TO TRUST IN GOD, PRAY FOR STRENGTH, SUBMIT my anger and my frusfration and try (really really hard) to LOVE rats. So don't tell me all Christian's are all so happy happy, so fake, so cheerful all the time...like no problems in the world. That's not true. TRY loving rats, then come tell me Christian's are a weak lot.

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: James EMAIL: jamestanyl76@yahoo.com IP: 202.188.227.82 URL: http://www.friendster.com/9658518 DATE: 01/14/2007 07:55:33 PM well said sis..that is why we need GRACE..not easy to live our way which ends up we being more frustrated..well, u are not alone in this race..lets encourage and challenge each other : ) -----

Birthday Blues

Today is my birthday and I'm officially over the hill. I am now described as LATE-twenties. Gone are the days I can pretend that I'm still in my MID-twenties.

What have I learnt from these 28 years? Here are some:

• We are who we choose to be
• Decisions we make come with repercussions
• Everyone makes mistakes. Some big major ones. Some very hurtful ones too
• Forgiving is easy, forgetting is hard, trusting again is almost impossible
• Good friends are those who respect your choices, and never laughs AT you when the choices are wrong
• Those who laugh with you doesn't necessarily cry with you
• The world is never black and white
• Gossips are easy to tell and spread, they are vicious and mean
• Truth is hardly even seen, tho everyone ask for it. However most can't deal with it
• A hug or a phone call is always better than a SMS
• TV waste alot of time which can be spent talking/being with ppl and not just sending SMSes
• Money can't buy happiness. I have not met a single rich brat which is truly happy with all the things that money can buy them
• Talk is easy and cheap
• A listening ear is very hard to find
• Accepting that other ppl have their own views and standards is very hard. Most of us want to change people
• Humour is really important in life
• When I'm with real friends, I can laugh and cry at the same time

Miss you :(

New Year's Resolution

Its the 3rd day of the NEW year. I thought I'd write down my resolutions to make sure that I don't forget them or break them... Sort of like putting it on record or making it black and white. Binding ;)

So here goes...my Resolutions for 2007: 1. Read the whole Bible 2. Lose weight (7 kgs to be exact) 3. Complain less 4. Be less critical 5. Tone down on my sarcasm 6. Instigate CHANGE & not fear it 7. Read more 8. Build a strong Marketing team 9. Work less, play more... 10. Take up dance classes 11. Finish my art and craft projects 12. Finish the jigsaw (Ships at War)

A Chapter in Life is coming to an end...

I started to pack my things yday for the move into my new place.... and it got me going down memory lane. Thinking about all the times that I have moved and how each time it has changed my life. And I realise a chapter of my life is coming to an end...i shall be leaving my family nest and embarking on a life long journey of being independent and away from the security of my parents home. And the thought is both scary and exciting at the same time. I have stayed out from my parents place before...but never like this... this seems so....permanent.

I remember the first time i moved... in Form 1...from Bukit Bintang to Sri Petaling... at that time, my world seemed like it was suddenly put in the washing machine and everything got shaken,turned,tumbled and came out all different (new & clean?? Not!)... from there i started taking a school bus, and oh the memories of all the crazy things that I did....hahaha.... nothing majorly BAD but definitely fun and crazy. That's when i got close to Shwu Yi...that's when i met my first bf (knew him 2 years first la)... that's when i totally screwed up my ankles (till this day, its loose)... my first real encounter with a lying, backstabbing friend (I shall not name names)....

Then I moved again....to Bandar Utama (Form 3)... that was also a major change. Bandar Utama during those days didn't even have One U yet...now there's two massive wings!! No school bus. PUBLIC transport!! And my trusty feet :p Stayed there through my WILD secondary days...haha... Did many many unmentionable things. And a lot of stupid things... fun, crazy stuff...etc.... Then came college and....well....too much too tell la...haha. Looking back they were good times, really good fun times :) All happy and without any worries in the world.

And now I've been staying in TTDI for the last 7 years. Many many things have changed and happened while i was staying here. College ended, work life started... So many more memories were made. As I'm packing my stuff I realise that I've kept soooooo many things...alot of pictures, gifts, cards, nick nacks, calendars, diaries...and as I go through each of it I start reminiscing, start laughing, some memories are sad too (which all has made my packing alot slower...hehe)

I'm really moving with a heavy heart... I didn't think that I would be, at first i thought i would be all happy and excited and can't wait to go... but I guess I do have a heart...hahaha Think that my heavy heart might have to do with all memories...

I am looking forward to a new door in my life that is opening.... a bit scared la, but a bit excited as well ;) I wonder wat else God has planned for me.... I guess I'll know the next time I move and look back ;)

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Marcus EMAIL: marcus.van.geyzel@gmail.com IP: 218.111.124.126 URL: http://www.friendster.com/15445947 DATE: 12/20/2006 03:59:52 AM eh... where u moving to lah? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Mei Fung EMAIL: meifung_1101@hotmail.com IP: 203.115.247.162 URL: http://www.friendster.com/2840340 DATE: 12/20/2006 07:02:10 PM aiyoh...not a regular reader of my blog hah? hahaha...no worries... just jk. Anyway, moving to Kelana Mahkota, in Kelana Jaya ;) -----

Nightmare

its a NIGHTMARE trying to juggle work, all the holiday season shopping, wrapping, everyone's weddings AND preparing my new place... and packing & moving.... EVERYTHING is happening all at once!! sob sob... my Christmas wish: that I can have 48hrs in a day for this season =p

----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Su Leen EMAIL: hosuleen@gmail.com IP: 40.250.0.9 URL: http://www.friendster.com/5392728 DATE: 12/19/2006 04:29:56 PM OLA! U know this is the first time I'm reading your rantings.... interesting! I think u are insightful. Yeah lar...introverts are like that huh.....:) When is moving day??Or is it moving days.... Lemme know one day that u need to do clean up or moving stuff...and I'll get a couple of us to come lend a hand...if one person helps for two hours, and i get 12 people to help...that gives you 24 hours of work and since you have your own 24 hours that God gave u anyway, THERE YOU GO! 48 hours!!! Your wish is my command!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Mei Fung EMAIL: meifung_1101@hotmail.com IP: 203.115.247.162 URL: http://www.friendster.com/2840340 DATE: 12/20/2006 07:19:10 PM aiyoh kawan u very cute la. Thanks for VOLUNTEERING 12 ppl...haha... but i think the worst is over. The most time consuming thing is going around and around looking for stuff for the house. Cleaning house, I got the perfect person: Shaun Perumal. He is SUPER clean...hahaha. But I think the best thing u can do with the 12 ppl is to COOK! for my housewarming? hehehe -----

My favourite season is coming :)

ITS COMING ITS COMING!! CHRISTMAS IS COMING!! =)

My favourite time of the WHOLEEEEEEE year. Christmas! I actually sometimes like it better than my own birthday....hahaha

Love the songs, the caroling, the gift buying, the gift wrapping (which usually last until the wee hours of the morning on Christmas day), the gift unwrapping...hehehe =)

But most of all...the peace and joy that surrounds the celebration of the birth of Christ. I think its most aptly illustrated with this song:

Oh Holy Night

Oh holy night! The stars are brightly shining It is the night of the dear Savior's birth! Long lay the world in sin and error pining Till he appear'd and the soul felt its worth. A thrill of hope, the weary world rejoices For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn!

Fall on your knees Oh hear the angel voices Oh night divine Oh night when Christ was born Oh night divine Oh night divine Led by the light of Faith serenely beaming With glowing hearts by His cradle we stand So led by light of a star sweetly gleaming Here come the wise men from Orient land The King of Kings lay thus in lowly manger In all our trials born to be our friend. Truly He taught us to love one another His law is love and His gospel is peace Chains shall He break for the slave is our brother And in His name all oppression shall cease Sweet hymns of joy in grateful chorus raise we, Let all within us praise His holy name

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!! May it be a season of hope, joy and love. May God bless everyone of you. And pray that you will let Jesus's love and sacrifice fill your hearts!